Stagnant again-
Trapped again-
Broken promises to self
Leave the glass half full and
Draining.
Capability is lurking but
Held back by something,
Is it lack of effort?
No- you could pretend but
That will eventually leave
The glass empty.
Fear of failure or
Fear of success?
Literary.Land.of.Alysia 
I love that you post your handwritten notes. It reminds us of the writing process and the steps that come before clicking “publish”.
Good work!