Staring out my window I dream.
Staring out my window I procrastinate.
Staring out my window I can see my future.
Staring out my window I contemplate self-doubt.
One day I won’t have to look out this window ever again.
I am frustrated by myself and with myself.
There seems to be no end in sight as if the sun refuses to set behinds the westward mountains.
Nature will and can only act according to its own decrees.
And yet I will find myself wanting to force change.
To wait, to be patient, to understand is the one risk which cannot guarantee reward.
To act foolishly is to get burnt.
When you get right down to it there isn’t really much redeemable about February.
Yes there is a day of love.
It is also the shortest month but for me,
for me it takes the longest.
There is no hidden anticipation.
All is doom, gloom and the farthest thing from bloom.
No hope yet.
Just passing time as I patiently wait for the promise of renewal in
spring- in March.
How many sentimental journeys do we take in a
Lifetime?
Year?
Day?
Hour?
The seduction of the memory cannot be resisted.
Heartbreak or fulfillment each beg you with equal vigor.
Are we running from our future or to our past?
The present is unable to offer the nostalgia we crave.
As long as you understand it’s not the memory it’s too far gone now.
Now we are in love with the sentiment.
What a boon to overcome your own self-doubt,
And to find yourself at the end of an arduous road.
Accomplishment battles with bewilderment.
Now What?
It’s so incredibly easy to look down-
Watch each step you take one by one. You never
have to look anyone in the eyes.
It’s so incredibly easy to look down-
You never have to worry about hazards or opportunities whipping
by.
It’s so incredibly easy to look down-
You never have to take a chance because the ground is solid
beneath you.
It’s so incredibly to look down-
And miss the beauty that’s in the sky just above the tree tops.
The sun rises, sets, repeats each day.
The moon follows suit.
Dancing with the stars instead of among the clouds.
A siren’s beat pulses in the air–hypnotizing
How high can you go– if you let go of everything?
Without ever leaving the ground–
HIKE. BIKE. DRINK.
College Level Drinking, Elementary Level Writing
A Poet's Journey by Manivillie Kanagasabapathy
An introvert's guide to the human experience